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Starting a new [02 May 2010|07:16pm]

So I haven't wrote in this journal in a long time but I feel that I'm in a time in my life where I need to express some of how I'm feeling so I don't shelter myself and feel as if I'm holding everything in. Some days things feel great but at the same time I feel as if my relationships have yet to heal some have but others are still struggling.

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more depressed than ever... [14 Jun 2006|12:10am]
i swear my life has just been one big messy ball of tears. well just about a week and a half ago my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer.
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And my life has moved on ....... [16 Aug 2005|04:33pm]
[ mood | HapPy HaPpy ]

Wow it's been awhile since I have been online and updated my journal alot has happened and I would never be able to write it all in all I can say is that my life is good and Im very very happy. Aneas is now 9 months old and he is the most handsome little boy I have ever seen but of course he is my child so I think he is the best in the world!!! He is a pretty big boy. I can tell my son is going to be a giant, his legs are long as hell and he is in the 98% of his age group on his weight. Im very happy that I went though all that I did because now I have th privlage of being a mother and taking care of this beautiful boy that was given to me. Even sometimes I feel like crying and pulling out all my hair, Aneas's smile makes all that pain and anguish go away. And he also has an awsome personality he does the funniest little things that keep me smiling and laughing. Aneas is basically my life, I dont work right now so im pretty occupied with taking care of aneas and trying to keep my house from being destroyed by him crawling around, He is getting pretty fast!!now only a few more months and this kid will have me chasing his little ass!!! Oh yeah me and Chris are doing good we have cleared the slate and started new. Who knew that would actually work, we are happy together and with our new little family.....The end

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*yayayayaya* [07 Apr 2005|12:57pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Happy happy b-day to me TomoRRow of course!!

Damn im old!! 24!!

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life as a mommy....... [30 Nov 2004|12:50am]
Yes, he was finally born on November 18th, he weighed 7pds,7ounces and he is beautiful!! It's the oddest thing to have one person depend on you so much, but at the same time the love I have for Aneas is so huge that I cant see my life any other way now. it's a crazy experience...
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Dayz just flying bye!! [19 Oct 2004|12:52am]
Wow Im now 35 wks so I only have about 4 or 5 wks till Aneas is born and im getting pretty excited, anchious and scared all at the same time!! The time just seems to be flying by and my due date gets closer all the time!! I cant wait till he gets here, Im not going to know what to do, things in my life are going so good to me that it all most seems sureal. Me and Chris are getting along better then we ever have in our relationship, we are actually even considering getting married. wow how life changes in such little of time well Im as happy as I can be and I hope anyone who reads this is just as happy, it feels good to love.
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I have some news..... [20 Sep 2004|10:23pm]
Im now 7 months and at my last doctors apointment, I was getting one of those new 3-D ultrasounds done. My doctor requires them to check for any facial defects. Well to my suprise I found out im not having a girl!!! Yes this was a shock, but a good one!! I have felt this child was a boy since the first even though they told me it was a girl, I just had this feeling it was a boy!! and what do you know it is!! Im way excited, I have always pictured my first child being a boy, and even more excited to know I only have 9 more weeks to go!! YAY!! It feels like I have been pregnant forever!! I have gained about 25 pounds but only in my tummy no where else, thank goodness!!!! All my jeans still fit my, it's just my shirts that have gotten pretty tight!! I wish I knew hot to put pictures up on here so I could post my 3-D picture it's actually really intreasting, poor little baby is so smooshed in my little tummy. Oh yeah and we had to pick a new name we now decided on - Eneius Vega- well that's all the news for now i'll try to get some more enteries in when I can!!!
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hmmmm..... [14 Aug 2004|07:23pm]
How to make a grrrl02

1 part success

5 parts self-sufficiency

3 parts ego
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion
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wow it's been some time..... [14 Aug 2004|10:16am]
I have been non existent to everyone for a long time. I have no excuse, just that pregnancy is a hard thing to deal with. Im now 6 mths, Yup only 3 more months to go till my baby arrives. Oh yeah just in case anyone is intreasted, Im having a Girl and I decided on naming here :::*Leila*::: Im absolutley tired of being pregnant!!! Especially during this yucky hot weather!!!
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life in general [15 May 2004|10:04pm]
somedays I feel so beautiful and alive then others I cant even beleive I exist, I dunno where my life is taking me right now w/ this new journy I hope to find happiness. Nothing else in my life seems to make me happy right now....all this sadness really makes me miss my daddy..He will never be able to see my baby and it tears me up inside I dont know why im thinking of all of this right now I just feel like I need to straighten out my life I only have 7 months til im due and I feel like Im never going to be ready to be a mommy....everyone tells me how natural it comes and I know im really good with children but in all reality im scared shitless of not giving this child every thing it deserves....I dont want to ever mess up on this I cant, faliure is not an option. I feel completley alone in all of this like im the only one thinking of what I have to do next.....but I guess if that's the way it has to be then so be it, I will figure it out for myself. Whatever I have to do to make this the best experience of my life beacuse I know it will be and no one can take that from me. I feel like a child im so scared but I dont have time to be scared an run away so I need encouragement, I think I need some counceling I need someone to help me see things more clearer because im so well I cant even explain how messed up my head is right now, but I thin k me seeking help will make me feel alot better. Life is hard but I will make it through, even if I have to do it alone.......*sweet dream*
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as time passes on.... [14 May 2004|10:10pm]
So I went to the doctor yesterday and saw my 2nd ultrasound, I am now 11weeks and 4days it's crazy but cool at the same time. It's such an odd feeling to me to know that soon im going to have a child of my own. I have basically have came to the conclusion that I cant rely on anyone not even the people that I love.....I need to do things for myslef and figure out what is best for me and my baby, wow my baby even those words coming out of my mouth shock me....I dont think I have completley come to terms with the situation. Well today me and Anna went to a angel therapist, it was very intresting she said she could talk to zane it really tripped me out because alot of what was said was pretty head on, even though I dont think I fully beleive in all of that she was pretty amazing. I dunno it was crazy but im glad I did it. well time for bed Im way tired, I just had the best dinner and now im ready to hit the sack. *good night* -Dina
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what should I do? [24 Apr 2004|10:34am]
wow, I thought making the decision to have this baby was going to change my life for the better, and make me happy well I cant say that it hasnt made me happy Im excited to have my own child but it seems like Chris has no heart to this child that he has created, Im just so alone an depressed right now it scares me, I wish I could explain exactly how I feel but I cant, the knife in my back is painful, now that IM all emotional Chris is playing off my emotions and making me feel like Im the crazy one, maybe I am maybe Im psycho and he is normal even though he has played me for a fool many times and made me feel like shit and made me crawl on my hands and knees. God I need to get out of this frame of mind and concentrate on me and this baby if all I think about is me and my baby I would be fine. But Chris is in my heart!! why did I fall in love with him? Why cant I have a normal relationship and be happy and become a family??? I need my dad with me so bad right now I need to make me go home and have this baby with him and my mom. My mom has already offered to take me home and take care of me but of course I hesitate because I love Chris and want him to be apart of this experience with me but he obviously doesnt want it, I need to be a stronger woman, for me and this baby!! my heart is aching right now my body is weak and my mind is in overdrive.....I need to love myself, I need this baby to come and love me to so I wont need a man, men only bring me sorrow and pain......I need love right now.......
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Insanity!!! [21 Apr 2004|11:20pm]
It's insane how ones life can drastically change in just a matter of seconds, my life is about to take a huge turn, Im scared and escited sad but happy all at the same time, This will be the most important experience of my life.....but yet I question where it will lead me, what will I do from here, how will I cope with all this new responsibility? Can I handle being a mother? Can I make it on my own if I have too? Is my life only going to be better? Or will I fall into the cracks? wow I never knew I could question myself so much.....Im happy to say Im going to have a baby but Im scared, I dont want to fail at something I have never experienced......life will go on but will I progress???
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WoW~ [08 Apr 2004|12:08pm]
crazy crazy it's my b-Day tOO summa.....Happy birfday to me :) and you too summer!!
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Is it for real? [19 Mar 2004|01:01pm]
Well once again Chris has Broken up w/ me we had this stupid stupid cycle of us getting together and then breaking up that never lasted longer than a day well yesterday he broke it off because I wasnt showing him any sympathy (he was upset and Crying) but I feel he hasnt shown me any when I really needed it for instance when zane died or when my granpa died neither time did I get any sympathy but I guess that stuff doesnt matter anymore life goes on and I think Im ready to move on Im sick of playing his stupid childish games. Chris is never going to change at least not for me maybe someone else can help him but all he like to do w/ me is bring me down so he can feel better about himself and I dont want to be put down anymore. anna I cant wait till dinner :)
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*ahhhh spring time* [11 Mar 2004|03:24pm]
*The sun warming my face definatley brings me to a better place* :)

Questions's I have pondered today!!??
Where is all the love?
Why are people so difficult?
Is this ever going to just end?
where did that dent come from?
Who wants to see me today?

Heheh im hyper! :) But today is definatley a good day:)
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Yucky~ [10 Mar 2004|12:50pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Damn this year has been my time for being sick I think I have already had like 5 colds, strep and the flu and once again I have a cold!! *cough* *cough* my throat is irritating me!!! last night I went home cleaned my apartment and then drank some NiQuil It was a great sleep but I have been at work for 6 hours now and I feel like I just woke up!! I dunno what's up w/ me and Chris things just seem odd right now, one second we break up the next were together, I guess we decided on not being together but yet we cant date other people, I dont know where that puts us basically back where we started *hehe* life is a joke I swear. But I can tell you one thing us not living together has taken off alot of stress. Now my mission is to make friends again. Hey does anyone know Jeremy's(euro) number?? I need it my phone was once again broken!!

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hmmm [08 Mar 2004|12:39pm]
[ mood | blank ]

I went to Idaho this weekend and wow at first all I could think about was getting back to utah and then as time moved on all I could think about is not wanting to come back to this life, *sigh* oh well I guess im just going to have to take a long vacation sOOn, I almost wish I was jobless but then of course I couldnt live, I just want to be able to sleep in 3 or 4 days in a row and fix up my apartment and mosy around town and be lazy for awhile. My days fly by w/ work and school and homwork and now im being forced to volunteer my time away damn if only I could volunteer my time to the Help Dina Relax association.

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Im going crazy [05 Mar 2004|02:08pm]
at the risk of sounding completley insane I had the wierdest experience last night, as I was trying to go to sleep everytime I would dose off my body would be paralized and I would start having these wierd fucked up things happeneing like there were people talking to me and and things happeneing around me and then id wake up in a sweat, I couldnt handle it I started to cry and really have a panic attack I had to call somebody I really thought I was going crazy Im actually scared, I think my stress level is at the worst level it's ever been, please someone tell me im not crazy.
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